| The facts were these... |
[Jul. 19th, 2009|09:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
My mood has become terribly erratic. Vacillating constantly between fury, lassitude, and panic.
While I am relieved to have successfully secured a storage unit, and at a very reasonable price, I am now unsure of whether my things will fit in it. I suppose it is not the end of the world if they won't, however, I am not sure how I'll get the things that don't fit back to Massachusetts if that proves to be necessary.
Likewise, upon arriving home from the mission to get the storage unit, I had a sudden moment of panic over how much is left to be done, and how little time I have left to do it. Since walking in the door at 7:30pm I have been filled with a nervous energy. I've tried my best to transform that into productive motivation, but with only barely passable results. Things have gotten done, but not enough... I think it may prove to be a very long night.
While I have still been beating myself up or my failures, self-imagined and real, I have found that there are too many pressing distractions to really get into it with myself. I am guessing that after a full week of living at my folks' and being back at work, I'll be more ready to return to the introspective self -hate crime of my previous posts. |
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| This day in history... |
[May. 6th, 2009|10:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  bored | ] |
Back working at the timber investment firm. While the work is easy, it is also very, very boring.
Also, when I get home I just want to veg out and not do anyhting. I feel like I am in a walking coma.
Blech. |
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| Totally valley... |
[Apr. 22nd, 2009|01:23 pm] |
Sitting at the mall. Waiting on the landlord to fix/replace the toilet. How long do you think that'll take? I plan on giving it three hours. Then I'll head back and hope everything went smoothly (but know, given my recent luck, that it won't have). Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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| That's it, I'm cursed... |
[Apr. 12th, 2009|10:49 pm] |
Nearly got hit by a car today.
Swerved to avoid it, clipped the curb.
Wheel got cracked, tire blew out.
Tow truck came to help me change the tire, but we couldn't get the lugs to move.
Put the car on the flat bed and took it to a nearby gas station; where the flat bed broke. No joke.
The driver, mechanic (Serbian Orthodox, thank God), and the attendant couldn't get the bed to move.
So I had to wait for another guy from the tow company to come and fix the flat bed.
THEN the mechanic was able to power the lugs off and change the flat. |
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| How could I have been so stupid? |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|10:39 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 05403 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | anxious | ] |
I rejoined Netflix.
Then, on a friend's suggestion I started watching Supernatural.
Big mistake, it's good, I'm hooked...
Damnit. |
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| Nervous... |
[Feb. 24th, 2009|02:54 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  excited | ] |
On Monday I am having lunch with an attorney from the Vermont firm I am interested in. Everyone cross your fingers for me. |
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| Meme abot me... |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|09:37 pm] |
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| | 02144 | ] |
* Describe me in one word, just one single word. Positive or negative.
* Leave your word in a comment, before looking at what words others have used.
* Copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people describe you when limited to one word. |
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| Something good in the making... |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|02:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
This past week I was supposed to meet with the Vice President and General Counsel for UVM. She had to call out sick that day, but arranged for me to meet with the Deputy General Counsel in her place. I went into the interview with very few expectations; not because I didn't want help, but rather, because I have had so many poor experiences with my job search.
It turned out to be a very good meeting. Though the University itself is under mandatory budget cuts, and therefore not likely to have positions coming available, the gentleman I interviewed with knew people at all of the firms in town that I was interested in. Including a firm that has two associate positions open... both of which I am qualified for.
So I have a list of leads to follow up on, a letter in at the firm with openings asking for advice on my application, and a much more positive outlook on the whole process.
As a further, unexpected, boon I am probably going to be working for one of Boston's large firms for a few weeks. They are under a time crunch, which means unlimited overtime for me. We'll see if I can force myself to do a few 60+ weeks. |
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| Favorite new song... |
[Jan. 8th, 2009|05:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Rise Against - Whereabouts Unknown | ] |
from an old favorite of a band.
Whereabouts Unknow - Rise Against. Get it. |
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| Interesting fact... |
[Jan. 8th, 2009|02:54 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
I was reading recently that hydration has a major impact on metabolism and weight-loss. That even 1% of dehydration can seriously slow metabolism... which is bad news, because as a 30 year old my metabolism is already on the slow-down. While I think that any reasonable person would understand this, I am not so sure that people would find as stark an example as I have.
Usually I can be counted on to drink 4-6 12 ounce cans of diet soda every day. That, and the moisture in my food, being my sole source of hydration. Recently I decided to try to introduce more water into my daily routine. I bought a new, BPA free Nalgene bottle (oohh, la, la! How trendy!) and decided to drink at least one bottle of water a day. This started on Monday.
Since then (as of this morning) I have lost 5.5 pounds. I am assuming that all of that weight was water that my body was storing because it was in "drought" mode. Of course, I have to ask myself if more water will equal more weight loss?
Unlike many people, who are able to make healthy decisions in their lives for the sake of being healthy, I need results to make me accept or adhere to changes. This was a nice change: people said water was good for you, I drank water, and good things happened. Results that are immediate are nice. Things that take time are not.
I have been reading up on the science of staring new habits, and have been discouraged by the fact that it takes some time for a behavior to become a habit. I am hoping to find a few more things like the water trick to help me fall into good habits, with at least some sort of immediate result in the beginning.
I know I am unreasonable, but of all the things I don't think I can change about myself, this may be the biggest one. |
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| Careful what you wish for... |
[Jan. 7th, 2009|11:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
I asked for new bed linens and pillows for Xmas, and I got them.
Now I am having trouble sleeping because I am adjusting to the new stuff.
Go figure. I am hoping tonight is the night, and that I'll have no trouble getting an uninterrupted 6-7 hours. |
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| Mr. 10 below... |
[Jan. 2nd, 2009|04:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 05403 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | anxious | ] |
Christmas and New Year's were fun.
I'd usually have expected that either would lead to some sort of crisis or another. Christmas because my family is like that, and New Year's because plans were made so late (seemingly).
I am anxious for things to pick back up, tough. Not working leads to all sorts of nonsense, which I'd prefer to avoid. I need to work and I need to take better care of myself. Those are the short term goals. Anything not in the immediate future may need to wait a few weeks. |
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| The thoughts of sage Wallace... |
[Dec. 22nd, 2008|01:16 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 02144 | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | poetic | ] |
XIII
It was evening all afternoon.
It was snowing
And it was going to snow.
The blackbird sat
In the cedar-limbs. |
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